Sorry

I love you & You love me too.

或许是我自私，或许是我不体谅，或许是我要求太多，或许是我没告诉你我的需要和想法，或许。。。

我发现自己开始埋怨你了。但我又没勇气开口告诉你。

我们刚在一起时，你还在TV3工作。时间比较自由。偶尔还可以再送我和陪我吃饭。

后来，你做2份工。早晚各一份。晚上陪我的时间少了。好，这我接受。我也没怎样不开心。

但，自从你开始新工作时，你要早睡。因为你要早起。自然而然，我们在一起的时间又少了。

举个例子：我只想跟你看一部电影，等了2个星期都看不成。我也不想你太累，所以也没吵着要去看。但是，不要一次次给我希望，又给我失望。

是，不得不承认的是我很开心你愿意陪我跟朋友一起去唱K。我真的很开心。

就因为这样，我真的不知该不该埋怨。你的付出都是为了赚钱。我想我该体谅你的累。

我是真的太爱你， 我不想你看到我伤心的样子。

对不起，老公。

老婆爱你

怎么办

才去那儿上班两天就怕了。怎么办？是我还不适应吗？

想起早上真是恐怖。照着公司提供的时间表等公司车，可是都等不到。

等不到没关系，脚都被擦损了，连去厕所都得忍着痛。可怜

我快受不了了！这不是我要的生活！

但是我能怎样？

谁能告诉我做工为了什么？

钱？兴趣？开心？消遣？满足自己？

到底为了什么？

有钱却没有开心，没有兴趣，没有突破，没有自由，该做这份工吗？

没有钱却有开心，有自己想要的，怎么办？

神啊！教导我该怎样走。该停，向前，转左，转右？

到底哪个才是神你为我安排的道路？

不管怎样，把一切交托给你。

感谢神的带领，阿门。

I love you today, tomorrow & forever ~


*今天放工后遇到爱关怀之家的弟兄，第一个对我笑笑说：知道我吗？他回头对我说：我看过你的。
第二个对我说：姐姐迟了，回家了，拜拜。
看到他们，听到他们对我说的话，人都开心多了。
我学习到知足。不要生在福中不知福。

后悔中？

呜~我没自由！第一天就让我失去了自由。。

糟了，
不能用手机，
不能上网，
不能带自己的pendrive，
不能在岗位吃/喝东西（水可以啦），
不能迟到，
不能准时回家
不能改广告的排版。。。

还有很多很多很多的不能！怎么办？

我能忍到几时？我失去了自由！

平时都很少见汉汉了，连sms他也不允许。

哇，这种生活太难顶了吧！

若是在后悔中，要趁早行动。

因为试用期要给两个星期通知，confirmed就两个月。

糟了，我真的后悔了。。

为了钱，我还是忍着先吧！

听说坐我位子的人都做不久的，我呢？

Karine，我好想去你公司做工啦！

但是自己没有车，自己不会驾车，那就麻烦了。。

前面的道路，还需要神你的一直陪伴带领看顾保守，阿门！

一样的带领看顾保守汉汉，好让他更可爱，更聪明，更健康。。。

感谢神！

I Love you Today, Tomorrow & Forever~

感动

望着时钟，都快9点了。心想：你是不是有了光良把我给忘了。

电话响起了，是你打来的。心想：你是要告诉我你到演唱会的地方了。

怎知，你竟然告诉我你在我家门外。

我差点吓呆了！我不肯相信。我错怪了你。心情好复杂。

我是很想你陪我回家，但我从没想过你会放弃你想去的演唱会。

看到你，我很开心。很开心你给我的一切美好回忆。很开心你这么疼我。

我是真的真的很感动。。

亲爱的，我感动都来不及了，怎会生气你呢？

真想好好的爱你，好好的疼你，好好的宠你，好好的让你撒娇。。。

感谢神的带领。感谢神把你赐给我做我的天使。

亲爱的，谢谢你的一切。

爱你爱你爱你爱你 <3


*明天是我第一天去The Store，愿神带领看顾保守，阿门！

矛盾

选择，只在一线之差。
不是接受，就是放弃。
没有谁对，没有谁错。

每个人的选择会因着价值而做。
选择做值得的事情。

我选择了家人，放弃了光良演唱会。
若我选择光良演唱会，全是为你，不是光良。
光良在我心里没有地位，只有你和家人有。

如果有的选择，我也不想扫兴。
如果有的选择，我会跟随你。
是真的有得选择，而我选择了家人。
我不是不选择你，而是不是为了光良而选你。

我命令泪水不许掉下。
我求神赐给我聪明智慧。
我求神带领看顾你的行程。
愿神带领看顾我们的感情。
阿门！

I love you today, tomorrow & forever~

New Hope

Finally, I decided to leave the worst company and accepted the new road.

I joined there since 26 March 2010 and 4 December 2010 is my last day. God, can you tell me that why I can survived there almost 9 months? Convenient? Yes, except convenient I don't want Dear worries about me. I knew that he to fetch me work everyday. But Dear, I really unhappy worked there. I just felt happy can works with May, Kiwi, Alice, Pui Yee, Karine (she is the person I like work with. Learn much from her. I likes her new company also but at Kepong).

The time I still new at there, May kept on asking me 'You still here ar?' Now, I want ask her this question. Normally new staff will be there for 1 hour, 1 days, 1 week or 1 months. Within a short period, there will knows how 'GOOD' they are.

Below shown their 'GOOD':

1. Confirmed me through PA's mouth without black & white just because felt leceh. Without black and white, I told his PA if wanna resign also will leave within 7 days. At the ends, I hand in resignation letter with deduct 7 days salary. He said that will told PA? She just a PA. PA only what. (From here shown his PA is useless)

2. He said that if Im not a confirmed staff why can I enjoyed their benefit likes EPF. Excuse me, EPF is for all employee no matter they confirmed or not.

3. He said Im irresponsible. He told me that Im like playing them. Even previous employees who just worked few days, they still wait for new worker and trained them then leave there. He said if Im not believe can ask his employees who work there for few years. The answer that I get shown he was bluff. He is cheating.. Haiz.. don't know why I still done all December advertisements to him even CNY advertisement I also done for him. Will he appreciate? No, but why I still done for him?

4. He said Im too cemas. Actually few days before they just discussed on adjustment salary. Every year they will have a salary adjustment. Again, he told me that if Im not believe can ask his employees. I asked them and proven he is liar. 3 years increased RM200 = yearly salary adjustment?

5. He said normal working hours are 5 days half. Now they provided additional alternated off days. He thought more 1 or 2 additional off days consider a what big benefit.

6. Worked on Public Holidays but didn't give double pay. Labour Day, National Day, etc also need working.

7. No bonus.

8. Hire a worker to worked out 13 workers works with lower salary.

Still got much much more....

Yes, maybe Im not a good worker. But I had done all the best that I can.

Now is the time for NEW.. New job, new look, new clothes, new mood, everything new.. forget all the previous and start with the new that arranged by GOD.

Dear, thank you that you always support me. Love you.. All the best in your new job =)

I Love you Today, Tomorrow & Forever ~

Thank you God.

December 2010

Ermm.. What I done in this year?

1. Got you as my cute angel
2. Going to change new job
3. Bought ticket to Taiwan
4. Jogging & Badminton
5. ............

What I wish to do?
1. Learn English
2. Improve my AI & PSD skills
3. Holidays with you
4. Follow God everyday
5. ..........

I don't think Im tamak, but thankful God accompany, guide me all those days..

Love you today, tomorrow & Forever